100% pure gratitude

I know I say this all the time, but damn. I am so, so lucky. In all my dreams and desires, I never dared hope I would get this lucky. I am a mother. To two wonderful children. There isn't a day that goes by, that I don't look at them and get that butterfly feeling in my tummy. A heady mixture of gratitude, awe, humbleness, remembrance,  old pain, fresh hope, intense love, fear, wonderment. Words just aren't adequate to describe the depth of this feeling. I am so damn lucky.

Comments

[Ann Johannesburg, South Africa]

Know that feeling!
xx

[Dominique]

Beautiful post! I also feel that I am very blessed. We're lucky.

[Lotus Carroll]

Are you in my head? I only have one as of yet, but I think these thoughts every day.

Such a blessing.

[blackbird]

You are wealthy.
Wealthy in joy and love.

[jax]

Yep - before our son I wouldn't dare myself to even dream what it would be like - infact I almost forced myself to play it down because I wanted it just so so much but wanted to believe I wasn't missing all that much!!!! Oh my how I was so delighfully wrong.

[Lindsay]

What a wonderful post!
I sometimes imagine and wonder how I'll eventually feel and tell my 'fertile' friends I'll never complain about no sleep bt GRATEFUL is the word! I think I'll just be more grateful when it happens.
Do you think you would have felt this way if it wasn't for your struggle?
Well said, Tertia!

[kristylynne]

I feel the same way. Beautiful post.

[Lena]

Tertia, yes you are very blessed. Praying every day that God will bless only half as much as you. Just one little baby will do. Hopefully I'll know what you are feeling soon. I am tired of waiting and all the dissapointment. Get sad just typing this.

"Mother is the name of god on the lips of children".

[Shauna]

I totally know what you mean. It takes my breath away, every day. For me, it's almost scary how lucky I feel having my sweet baby girl. It's like, can something this amazingly wonderful really be mine? I think we infertiles, when we finally do get our babies, really do understand how something can really seem far too good to be true.

[Lisa]

Hang in there Lena. Your comment made someone on the other end of the world say a little prayer for you that you become a mother very soon.

[Simone]

Our two beautiful girls came to us through domestic infant adoption in the US, and they still take my breath away. Doubly so when I think that their amazing birth families actually CHOSE us to parent them. Lucky and grateful describes how I feel today.

[jenny]

I hope that your dream comes true Lena. I used to read Tertia and hope for the same "mother love" she has, and now I am holding my own little IVF miracle. I say a prayer every night for my IVF sisters that are still fighting for their dream.

[Karyn]

got goosebumps reading this! My sons are aged 4 and 9 yrs old and I still am in awe of the wonderment of having produced and given birth to these two boys! To those of you still trying,be strong!Lena a big hug for you!!

[Suzie-Q.]

Yes, you are so very blessed... lucky girl you!

['wishIknew']

Great pics - wonderful thoughts.
Thanks for sharing.
(sent you a couple)

'wishIknew'

[SHARKS]

They are so pretty. Hulle is pragtig!!