It’s out! The book is
out! Although only locally I am
afraid. For all the non-South African
residents, please hang in there and hold on to those kind promises to buy the
book, I am working my ass off on getting the book published in the rest of the
world. I am hoping to have it available
internationally by the end of the year.
But as of today, I am officially a Published Author.
Please carry on reading for details on where to buy the book (order online here), what it is about and for some of the early reviews and endorsements.
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This is the heartbreaking, exhilarating, devastatingly funny story of Tertia Albertyn’s battle with infertility. Tertia wanted a baby so desperately, that she went through nine IVFs. Most people give up after the third.
I don’t think I am being brave at all. I am just too terrified not to try again.
In her worst nightmare she could never have imagined that making a baby would take her four years, each treatment bringing her and her husband Marko closer and closer to making a family.
During Tertia’s journey everything that can go wrong does go wrong. Until, finally, everything goes just right.
Tertia is as hilarious as she is irrepressible, as approachable as she is knowledgeable. If you are struggling with infertility, have triumphed over infertility of have felt empathy with someone who is going through this experience, you will find a friend in Tertia.
More on the book here
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The endorsements
I sent the book to two people to review, and both people loved it. They are both psychologists. Here are their reviews:
Dr
Sheila Faure, specialist in perinatal psychology:
‘So
Close is a compelling and inspiring book for couples who are struggling with
fertility difficulties. It is also an invaluable guide for those who care about
them. With unflinching truthfulness, Tertia Albertyn describes the crushing
cycles of hope and despair entailed in infertility treatment. At the same time,
the book resonates with a wicked sense of humour and is an extraordinary
testament to the power of mother love.’
‘Dr
D’ (Dorianne Weil), well known clinical psychologist:
It is
rare and an honour to witness and participate in a journey written from the
point of view of participant and observer. It is only with the highest level of self awareness and insight that it
is possible to BE your story, open your heart and mind and invite others in.
This
is a ground breaking documentary for anyone who travels this route and anyone
who wishes to understand. Most of all it is for everyone who feels they can’t
do it again. Not again, whatever the ‘it’ is……. usually another IVF or some
invasive treatment that has taken its toll financially, emotionally, socially
and sometimes spiritually.
It is
Tertia’s story - but it’s everybody’s story about possibility even probability,
courage, tenacity, determination and the undoubted value and healing power of
support.
And then, from my Doctor.
Dr Sulaiman Heylen, MD, Cape Fertility Clinic
Infertility treatment is different from other
medical interventions, the stakes are so high and the results so unpredictable, which
makes it all incredibly difficult to deal with. Tertia Albertyn's book gives an
accurate, first person description of the ups and downs of infertility
treatment. It will provide great help and inspiration to couples struggling
with infertility, and is also a source of information for those
wanting to understand people affected by it. Tertia's book is a
harrowing reality show between two covers and will appeal to anybody who
appreciates a real story that comes straight from the heart.
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The initial reviews:
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Where to buy the book
The book available online here – Loot or Kalahari.net
In store at Exclusive Books this week!
And it should be available at other bigger book stores like CNA and Wordsworth etc
Rest of the world, its coming, soon!
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Some thoughts from me
I have been so so sooooooo excited to tell you all about the book, but I haven’t wanted to say any thing until it was available. I think we ended up with a great tag line – remember how I was struggling to find the perfect tagline, well my lovely editor came up with the idea. The tagline suits the book perfectly:
So
Close: Infertile and addicted to hope
(I do give Julia credit in
the book for coining the term “Hope Addict”, thanks Julia!)
When you click on the links at the end you will see the cover. Remember how we spoke about the cover as well! Well, you will be happy to know there is no picture of a baby on the cover. When I first saw the cover I didn’t like it. I felt it was too light, too ‘chick lit’, but the cover grows on you and I love it now. It has actually turned out even better in print, the blue is softer that shown online and the spoons are embossed metallic silver, v cool.
The manuscript I handed in to be edited is different to what has ended up in the book. And it was hard for me to go through that process. My fault of course. The brief was for a 70,000 word manuscript. I wrote 112,000 words. So they cut; a lot of stuff. The original manuscript was a lot harder, rawer, more full of pain, but having earned my school fees by going through the editing process, I now totally agree and support the decision the publisher made to lighten the script up a little. It is still me, it is still my voice, but it is not as raw and sore as before. They cut some of the really raw, pain filled parts. And rightly so.
The book is very sad in places, of course it is. It is impossible to tell the story of Ben without being sad. But it is also funny, hopeful, entertaining in others. It will lift you up, and then make you come crashing down again, only to lift you up in hope once again. I wrote the book purposefully like that, to reflect what it is like to go through the ups and very downs of infertility.
I am really proud of the final product. I can’t wait for you all to read it. You will be able to buy the book through some of the online links I will add, but it will be so expensive with the shipping etc, please wait until the book is published in your country (and on Amazon). I promise to make sure that it is! Soon, hopefully.
I feel so, I don’t know what. Proud, excited, petrified, sad, happy, exhausted, rejuvenated, amazed, happy. I can’t believe I have written a book. I can’t believe I was afforded the opportunity to do so (Thanks Michelle, you are fabulous). I can’t believe I stuck to it, that I actually did it. I am a terrible procrastinator and a lazy asshole, I am very proud of myself for having done this. Having a signed contract with deadlines and delivery dates helps, hugely ;-)
But mostly I feel so emotional about it, not about writing the book but about reflecting back on what I have been through, possibly for the first time in it entirety. I’ve suppressed so much of what happened. I can’t actually believe I went through what I did. I can’t believe I made it out the other side. I never imagined I would ever have been able to survive what I did. I had no idea I had so much inner strength. I am so immensely proud of myself.
I’ve been petrified about the book coming out. So much so that I haven’t let anyone read it, besides those who had to, like my editor and the reviewers. But I haven’t let Marko read a single word, or my mom, the two people closest to me and who know most about my journey. I was so shy about the book, so scared they would hate it. So scared that it was shit, that I couldn’t write to save my life (thanks you one or two who wrote that I can’t write, you certainly know how to lift a person up). I am still shy and extremely nervous that people will hate it, but the significance of what this is all about is overshadowing that fear, at least a little. I am proud of myself, I am proud of the fact that I have written this book. If people hate it, well then, so be it.
And to be sure, not every one will like it. I swear a lot in the book. I had no idea how much until the one reviewer said “I loved the book so much I didn’t even mind the swearing”. Oops. I say ‘fuck’ a lot in the book. But lets be honest here, infertility is fucking terrible, it is hard not to say ‘fuck’ a lot when speaking about it. Plus I am totally honest about how I felt at the time and about the decisions I made. That is bound to piss at least a few people off. I am sure I will get judged for some of the decisions I made.
I am so excited, I can’t believe I have actually done this.
This is a hugely emotional, significant moment for me. This is not just about writing a book, this is certainly not about making money (South Africa is a tiny, tiny market, if I sell all the copies of my first print run I will have made the equivalent of one month’s salary!! Which is why I must get the book published internationally.) No, it is not about any of that. This is about remembering and honouring all the children I have lost, especially my son, Ben. The book is dedicated to him. It is also about Adam and Kate, about what went into their making. It is a journal for them as well, it is also their story.
It is also for my friends, family and colleagues to hopefully help them understand a bit about what I went through, to help them understand why I was the way I was. I hope that reading my story helps them understand a bit more about me, and a bit about what it is like for many other infertile women out there. Because this book is dedicated to all the infertile women, all over the world. It is part of my promise never to forget, to continue fighting for recognition of the issues that infertile people face. It will hopefully help them and help educate others.
And lastly, the book is my final ‘fuck you’ to the shit I went through. Fuck you fate, I never accepted your initial plan for me. You tried your best to beat me down, but you never did, you came close, but I stood up every time and carried on fighting. It was so hard, there were so many times when I wanted to give up, there were so many people who said things like “maybe it is not meant to be’, ‘maybe God doesn’t want you to be a mother”. There were so many, many occasions of inordinate bad luck, of terrible misfortune. There were so many occasions where I came so close to rolling over and dying. But I didn’t. And this book is my release note, my parole letter, my graduation certificate.
It was damn hard, it nearly killed me, but I made it. And I am so proud of myself for doing so.
Thank you to all of you, for every thing. Much love to you all.
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My new project
All of this has given rise to my new project, Nurture Egg Donor Program. South Africa's premier egg donor program. Please see Nurture's website for more information about our egg donor program and to view details on our available donors. Although we work with any reputable fertility clinic, the majority of our donations take place at Cape Fertility Clinic.
www.nurture.co.za
Wow, wow, wow. How amazing are you? Congratulations to you, Tertia. And thank you for doing this. All the best to you.
Posted by: Nina | 01 August 2006 at 03:19 AM
Congrats!!! I can't wait until it comes to Canada!
Posted by: Soralis | 01 August 2006 at 03:34 AM
Thank you, Tertia. And not just for giving me credit ;) but for sticking it out and documenting it all.
You give me courage to do the same. And, in that vein, should you have any advice, I'm all ears with regards to publishing.
Congratu-fucking-lations!!
Posted by: Julia | 01 August 2006 at 04:50 AM
Ever thought of using Ebay to send your book to all us impatient So Close lovers of the world?
I'm very excited to read your book!
Posted by: Tree | 01 August 2006 at 06:59 AM
Ha! I love that the reviewer mentioned your swearing! That's one of the things I love about you, T. And it's so true - I had a particularly bad week, so bad that in my post about it, I *had* to use the 'f' word. I couldn't not.
Mazal tov! Congratulations! I'm so excited for you, and your post blatantly reveals how excited YOU are about the publication. I can't wait for North American publication...
Posted by: projgen | 01 August 2006 at 08:33 AM
Congratulations T! What a fucking amazing accomplishment. You rock!
Posted by: Sara | 01 August 2006 at 10:12 AM
Dear Tertia
I am so pleased for you and so proud of you. Your book is a wonderful accomplishment, and will do a lot of good.
And I won't be waiting till it turns up in Australia - I will be ordering it asap!
Margot
Posted by: Margot | 01 August 2006 at 11:49 AM
Can't wait to buy it!!! Please get it on Amazon fast!!! Congratulations Tertia!!!
Posted by: jane | 01 August 2006 at 07:17 PM
Another lurker from the US peeking out to say BIGGEST congrats on the successful birth of this baby...I know it was another labor of love that will have as beautiful an outcome as the two lovely crumb-droppers whose pictures we all love to see. Can't wait to get a copy and to tell every female I know to buy a copy.
Posted by: Kim | 01 August 2006 at 08:50 PM
CONGRATS!!! Wonderful, wonderful, can't wait to read it!
Posted by: Georgia | 01 August 2006 at 09:44 PM
Tertia! CONGRATS on the book! What an exciting time! I will look forward to picking up copies over at Exclusive Books (love their coffee) when I get over there in September! ROCK ON!
Posted by: Kate | 02 August 2006 at 02:29 AM
Congratulations, Tertia! Can't wait until it is available in the states.
Posted by: Inga | 02 August 2006 at 05:45 AM
Well-done Princess T.
Posted by: Dr H | 02 August 2006 at 09:47 AM
Congratulations! How very exciting for you!!
Posted by: Molly | 02 August 2006 at 04:54 PM
Congrats! So proud of you!!! Way to go!
Posted by: Danie'l | 02 August 2006 at 07:13 PM
HUGE congratulations!!! Getting goosebumps. You are a woman of many many MANY talents. Screw the spatula - who needs to know how to cook, esp for someone like you!
p.s. Why the spoons on the cover? Did I miss something..?
Posted by: sweetisu | 03 August 2006 at 04:53 AM
Congratulations! Can't wait to get my copy.
Those aren't spoons... they're sperms. I like the cover! It's cute. Damn all we need is one.
How could I order the book and have it delivered to my country? I'm very much interested. Maybe I could help you have it published in my country.
Posted by: Marge | 27 August 2006 at 07:29 PM
congratulation girlfriend, and thanks for sharing.
looking forward to read the book
Posted by: africatz | 30 August 2006 at 04:26 PM
Congratulations Ms Tertia, great to see that someone I know is an author!!! Will buy it for sure and hope to share a few bottles of chilled Meerendal Sauvignon Blancs soon. At least you did TRY HARDER.xxx
Posted by: Charleen | 29 September 2006 at 03:51 PM
Hi, I just happened upon your website/story and would love to get your book! I'm a fellow TTC, preemie mom (also a twin angel mom). I live in California, USA. Liz. I blog my story too. www.alizard.com
Posted by: Liz McCarthy | 22 December 2006 at 12:26 AM
hi tertia!
bought the book off kalahari.
read the book.
cried.
laughed.
cried some more.
told my mom about it.
told friends and colleagues about it.
read it again.
passed it on to a colleague who is also a friend!
fabulous tertia!
i couldn't put it down- and my mom has dibs on it already for when my friend is finished with it!
Posted by: angel | 23 December 2006 at 04:05 PM
Hi Not read your book but I see you have tried 9 times. We have 6 times and we are down and now asking whats wrong . us or clinic . must we try new Dr and clinic . when do you stop. Dr´s say everthing is good no problems eggs good sent for tests and then the the negative news. Need some advice Thanks Johan and Bia
Posted by: johan van eeden | 29 January 2007 at 06:20 PM
going to buy the book....
Posted by: David Brooks | 02 November 2007 at 05:26 PM
HI TERTIA,
Read your book, ...............wow what a journey, i still can't get over the emotional high's and lows,and the tears I've experienced over the last few days while reading all about your journey.
great one!,
ps: you should send Opprah a copy!!. just a thought.
Posted by: Patricia Langley | 18 January 2008 at 12:14 PM
I recently got my copy of your book from Amazon which I am thoroughly enjoying. I just thought I'd share with you - when I saw the picture of your book on your blog, I always thought they were sperm on the cover (you can see where my mind is) and it wasn't until I had it in my hands that I realized they were spoons!!!
Posted by: Heidi | 28 March 2009 at 07:39 AM
Hi guys. The most exciting phrase to hear in science, the one that heralds new discoveries, is not 'Eureka!' (I found it!) but 'That's funny ...'
I am from Togo and learning to read in English, please tell me right I wrote the following sentence: "Discount travel resource for hotels, airline consolidators, and cruises."
Thank you very much ;-). Anoki.
Posted by: Anoki | 30 March 2009 at 05:35 PM