So Close

From Julie

I sent her a note to tell her that old Jule's has had her twins.

This is Julie's reply. 

"J. Roberts = asshole for upstaging me"

hahaha, typical Julie.

Julie / Bat Update

Latest from Julie:

“Totally unreal. C-sec doesn’t hurt at all.  Baby has long feet, light hair and nice hands”

and

“All OK, baby tiny and unamused, but doing as they expect (ups and downs, as u know).”

And then the lady with the big heart (and breasts) asked how I am.  Isn’t she a winner.

Monday Update

All is well.

Gestation:  30w3d.

Babies:  Both babes fine, both practicing their breathing, clever little things.  It is getting increasingly difficult to see Adam, he is very low down, and Kate is lying on top of him.

Cervix:  No change from last week!!  Now that is good news.  I really expected a big change cos it feels like these babies are practically falling out.

Next appointment is the big growth scan with the other Dr.  I am looking forward to getting a weight estimate on the babes.

We did a quick non stress test and both babes are fine.

I get to stay home another week! 

V happy, as I was secretly very worried about Adam, I couldn’t feel his movements clearly and was having terrible DBT’s, but it makes sense now, seeing how he is lying.

And now I need to go lie down, the babies have just been fed some trifle, which they thoroughly enjoyed, apparently dessert is their favourite meal.

Julie / Bat Update

Received about 6pm Sunday EST.

“Baby is on CPAP, room air, doing fine.  I am on lime Jello, Percs, high as kite”

Fantastic news to get.  Bat is being such a strong good baby and Julie sounds like she is getting back to her usual self, I am over the moon!!

(dreamt about Julie and Bat the whole damn night!)

Bat and Julie’s first night.

Bat is on CPAP at 26% oxygen which is just great! The child is practically a genius. Sounds like Bat had a stable night.  Julie is also feeling a lot better.  She says she was very very ill just before the c-section.  Sounds terrifying.

Bat was born at 29w5d gestation.

She seems to be doing ok, just obviously over-whelmed and scared.

Julie says Bat is “pink and small”. 

I’ve told her that the whole world is thinking of her, Paul and Bat.

Poor Julie, first the placenta previa, then the gestational diabetes and now HELLP.  The poor girl has been through hell.  She is such a brave woman.

Will continue to try and keep you posted with updates, but I don’t want to bother her, even though she is on my mind all the time.  She must be exhausted, she was very ill prior to the c-section.

Bat is here!!!!

Just got a message from Paul:

"3 pounds 11 ounces, apgar 9/9.  julie sez 'beat that'"

What a huge baby she has there.

Congrats Julie and Paul on the birth of your Bat.  I know what sex Bat is but I will let Julie tell you.

I am so proud and pleased.

OMG!!!

Just got a message from Julie on my cell phone.  This is what it says:

“Being prepped for emerg. C-Sec – severe HELLP.  Pls tell Internet”

Sent about an hour ago at 04:48 my time, which is about 10pm EST.

Here is something on HELLP.

Girls, please send your collective thoughts to Julie, Paul and Batman.  I know Bat will fine, Bat is a big baby already.  But it must be damn scary for Julie and Paul.

I just can’t believe this is happening, I burst into tears when I got the message.

I will keep you updated as I hear news.  I’ve asked that Paul lets me know me what is happening.

Please girls, prayers, thoughts, good vibes etc – send them on strong to Julie.

I love you Julie, so very very much.

Preparing myself

I think I might just give in and go to hospital this coming week.  I am getting plenty of BH’s each day (I am actually getting used to them now), and while this might be ‘normal’, I think I might as well be as close to help as I can be.  And yet…..  Being home is so much more relaxing, for me and for my ute, I honestly don’t know what to do.  I think I will see what Monday’s appointment brings.  If my cervix is the same as last week, I will stay home for another week.  If it has started funneling or is shorter, I will go to hospital.  But in all honesty, being at home is best for me on so many levels. 

I have spent the weekend preparing myself, getting things in order so that I feel better about being away from home. 

I have cleaned out the nursery, packed away all the clothes and blankets into appropriate piles, marked clearly what must be washed (kind Mother will do this for me).  I have drawn up a list of what I still need and kind Sister will do my last shopping for me (how sad that I don’t get to enjoy the shopping for baby things thing ##@*&!!!!).  The nursery furniture arrives on Friday, I have shown Marko were I want what, given him instructions to give to the maid to clean the furniture, paid all outstanding accounts, sorted out queries, I think I am ready to go.  I didn’t want to leave Marko with all sorts of things to do, he will have enough on his plate sorting out the pets, the house, food for himself etc. 

The only thing I need is something to wear all day.  I wear old T-shirts to bed or just underpants, but I guess I can’t walk around with my underpants showing there.  Or could I?

Of course the thing that keeps pricking at the back of my mind is that hospital bed rest didn’t stop me from going into pre-term labour last time.  Although this time I know more and will insist on drugs the minute I suspect any thing is amiss.  Last time they dismissed my fears as just an irritable uterus.  Next thing I was 5cm dilated and contracting. In hindsight I am completely pissed off at the nurses because I now know I passed my mucous plug as well, which I showed them and still they said it was nothing.  But there is no point in looking back.

But I don’t want to go, boo hoo.  It’s horrible there and I will have to share a bathroom, maybe.  I hate sharing bathrooms.  I suffer terribly from performance anxiety, I might never make a number 2 again and die from enforced constipation.  What a cruel and torturous death.

BTW, I think I hate Thanksgiving.  What am I supposed to do while you are all being thankful and stuffing your face with turkey?  The Internet is dead!  Stop being thankful, immediately.  You are my source of entertainment and a welcome distraction from the boredom of bed rest, how selfish of you not to be around.

Happy 30/36!!!!

Woo hoo!!  30 weeks gestation today, on my 36th, I mean 21st birthday.  A better gift I could not have asked for.

I am going to be happy the whole day.  Not even caring about my advanced age.  Then it’s head down until the next milestone, 32w.

30 weeks.  I honestly didn’t think I would make 30 weeks.  Could this mean, just maybe, that I could actually end up with two babies out of this?  After all this time?  Glimmers of hope are appearing between the cracks of terror.

Now if I could get the gift of 34w for Christmas (falls on Christmas Eve) then I would be a v v happy girl (ok, old bat).  I need no other gift.

PS:  Uterus behaved appallingly yesterday.  Completely childish.  Hoping for better behaviour today.  Even phoned Dr.

Pregnancy Question

How many BH’s a day are considered normal? 

Should I expect more because I am carrying twins and I have an irritable uterus?

Also, when do you decide that the contractions have changed from BH’s to real contractions?

In other words, when do you panic?

My uterus has been particularly uppity this week and I am getting about 6 BH’s a day.  No rhythm to them, and they are not sore.  Just hardening for a few seconds.  They come if I change position, if my bladder gets too full (i.e. more than three drops worth), the babies have a pilates class on, or if my pillow presses too hard into my belly.  No backache, otherwise I feel fine.  Also none last night?

I really really really don’t want to go and lie in hospital, I know from experience that it makes me uterus even more irritable.  But if the contractions are not BH’s and are indeed early labour contractions, then of course I need to get my ass over there asap to start the anti-labour meds.

What’s normal?