The Biggest Loser and School Update

I was going to write up a motivated post about how well I am doing on my diet but I just totally pigged out at lunch. Note to self: Do not wait until you are STARVING TO DEATH before eating. Or else you will overeat. And feel disgusting afterwards. *Burp*

But besides this slight fall of wagon, I’ve been really good. Not a sweetie or chip has passed my lips.  I am sure I’ve lost a few grams. I am going for a weigh in on Thursday. I know you aren’t supposed to worry about the number on the scale, you are supposed to concentrate on how you are feeling etc, but I am going to feel pretty damn cross if the number hasn’t reduced by a respectable amount. (My scale is still broken or else I would have weighed myself by now)

But I must say, I am feeling better, a lot better. Healthier, happier. It pains me to say that you were right (and that you told me so), but exercise really does make a huge difference. I feel better, inside. And out actually. My fat pants are feeling positively loose on me. Of course I am nowhere near fitting into my thin pants, but it is still a marked improvement. It is rather depressing when your fat pants are too small for you!

There was something else I wanted to tell you but for the life of me, I can’t remember. 

Anyway, let me tell you about day two at school – MUCH better. Well, better for me. I feel loads better about sending them now. I *know* they will be fine there. The teacher is wonderful, the place is wonderful and they will learn to love it. It makes it easier for me to be strong about leaving them there. 

When I told them that they were going to school that morning, Kate said she wasn’t going to go, but I ignored that. Kate never wants to do anything I tell her to do, so her defiance wasn’t anything new. I just ignored it and off we went.

As soon as we got there, Kate ran off to play games. I told her I was leaving now and would be back later to fetch her and she couldn’t even be bothered to turn her head to say goodbye. She just gave a halfhearted wave in the air above her head and mumbled a goodbye. Ok then.

Adam said that he was going to come home with me. I told him that he had to stay at school and that I would be back later to fetch him. Upon which he started sobbing saying that if I left him there he would be “very, very sad”. After hugging him and giving him a kiss I handed him over to the teacher (still crying) and left. It was difficult, but not as difficult as I thought it would be. As I said, I know in my heart that he will be fine there. And apparently a few minutes later he was. They both had a great day. When I came to pick them up Adam was all smiles and Kate was crying. But she was overtired (they are used to sleeping at 12, not still being out at that time) and apparently upset because her brother took her baba. 

So, school is going well. I am feeling much, much better about it.

I am actually in such a good place at the moment.  Such a nice feeling. I feel fantastic mentally (love love LOVE antidepressants, never going off them) and I feel pretty good physically as well. Long may this feeling last!

Comments

[Lauraszoo]

You're doing fantastic! I'm so glad that school is getting easier for all 3 of you!

[Molly Chase]

Second and third day of school is always harder than the first, then it gets easier. My heart goes out to you--my son cried every day when we first dropped him at daycare his first year there, and as soon as my husband or I got there in the afternoon, he would start to cry again as soon as he saw us. Good on all three of you for being so brave.

[Judy]

So glad it was a wonderful day for all of you. YAY!!!!

[zenoma]

Cheers to you! What you are doing for Adam is telling him "I know you can do this, I believe in you, you will be ok." On top of that He knows that mommy always comes back and you keep your promises! Well done!

[Wyliekat]

I love those moments of "all's well". They're so worth all that comes before and after.

[Lila]

Wonderful, Tertia!!! I'm happy to hear all is well at the Anal Albertyn's house ;-)

[Heather]

Excellent! If you like the school, it makes it so much easier. And congrats on feeling good exercising. I know I could use an endorphin boost from my elliptical machine today too. This post will give me a little kick in the pants to listen to that voice that tells me I need it. Must stop ignoring her.

[Sheila]

Hooray for school! Sounds like Kate and Adam and you are all adjusting very nicely. I'm sure there are many interesting things to talk about, and to look forward to the next day. I hope all 3 of you will come to LOVE playschool the way our kids did.
Way to go on the exercise and feeling good! I must get started, am feeling fat and lazy and want to hibernate, as usual for this time of year in the Canadian prairies. If you can do it, maybe I can too.
Best wishes,

[kristylynne]

You go mama! Glad that everything is going swimmingly!

[Bec]

Dammit girl! I just got a few minutes to myself so I grab a bag of chips and some creamy ranch dip and settle in front of my computer to catch up on some fun reading and you.just.wrecked.it. You suck.

Glad the kiddos are adjusting to school,and you too.

Next time you post a guilt inducing post could we please have headers? I would have saved your blog til I was done with my artery clogging snack.

[Heidi]

I'm sitting here after hitting the gym for the first time since December and eating my high protein, low carb lunch and feeling better already. Exercise really is key for me and I know I can take off those last 25 lbs I need to lose to feel fabulous.

Hooray for school going so well and being in a good place mentally. I still take antidepressants as well and they really do help!

[Heidi]

Hee, I just read the comment right before mine and had to chuckle. I've been there too. Keep it up! (From one PCOS girl to another!)

[Bev]

Can you see me? I'm doing the Mexican Wave for you! Well done! Keep it up!

[JuliaKB]

So the only bad news is the huge lunch? That's almost like no bad news at all. Almost.
Good going on leaving them in school. And you didn't even need your spy post today!

[V]

Yay, good for you for keeping up with the exercising. Am having to force myself to exercise too. Here is my new weight shedding blog which I mentioned to you the other day - www.growby40.blogspot.com. I am hoping that by being open about every aspect of the weight loss I will be forced to keep it up or lose face. So anyone who is trying to lose weight is welcome to read my blog and give some support.