2006 has been a big year for me. So much has happened. Both good and not so good.
It has been a year of tremendous joy. The first year of babyhood was not that easy for me. Newborn twins are tough. But the second year is so much fun. It is such a joy to see how your children grow and learn and take delight in discovering the world around them. I still look at my children in wondrous disbelief – I am awed by how incredibly lucky I am to have these two beautiful children. How on earth did I manage to get this lucky?? I am unspeakably grateful.
It has been a year of great achievements (publishing a book), moments of great opportunity (appearing on TV twice, doing three radio show), great exposure in the print media (reviews, interviews or excerpts in just about every major local magazine and newspaper). Lots of ’15 minutes of fame’ for me this year. I feel a great sense of pride in myself for pursuing this.
It has also been a year of big change on the job front. Moving from being a big fish in a small pond, to being a small fish in a very, very large pond (IBM). A change in mindset, and going forward, perhaps a change in focus. More work, less play.
It has been a challenging year on other fronts. At a time in my life when everything seemed to be going right, I was hit by depression once again. The timing of it was hard to deal with. Why then, when everything was going so well? Learning that I am at higher risk for bouts of chemical depression was hard to hear. Even harder has been the struggle to find the right solution for the depression. It has been a tough few months. But I am determined to be well.
It has also been tough to find the right harmonious balance in my marriage. Parenting brings with it a set of stresses and challenges to the relationship that I never anticipated.
I’ve learnt a lot about myself this year. Things I hope to learn and grown from next year.
I am not going to do new years resolutions. I never stick to them anyway. And anyway, I’ve stopped smoking and I am hardly going to stop drinking, now am I? What other resolutions are there?
Instead, what I would like to do is set focus areas for myself for 2007:
1. The main one being my health. I want to focus on being physically, emotionally and psychologically healthy in 2007. I am going to promise myself to take whatever steps are required to make sure 2007 is a healthy year for me. I neglected my health in a big way in 2006. And I suffered for it.
2. My marriage: I need to work hard at making sure my marriage is healthy too. I want us to be together, happy, forever. And that doesn’t happen automatically. Good marriages require care and dedication. And hard work!
3. My career: I would like find my niche at work, my ‘groove’. Find the thing I enjoy doing, that I am good at, and then excel at it. It’s been a while since I have done something at work that has excited me.
You will notice that I haven’t mentioned motherhood or my kids in my 2007 goals. And that is because I intend on continuing doing what I did in 2006, being the best mother to my kids I could be. Motherhood was the one thing I did really well in 2006. It was a job I adored doing. Unfortunately it came at the expense of the three things above. My children got every single ounce of me. And everything else suffered. This next year I need to learn to continue being a good mom, but also to focus on being good to myself, my husband and my job. My kids will always come first, but the other things need attention as well.
What are your 2006 reflections and 2007 aspirations?