V v exciting, had my first meeting with the publisher, editor and the team who will be responsible for my book yesterday. We had the official handover of the manuscript. We discussed the schedule and deadlines, it all feels very official. I think this book might actually be published and *I* will have a book on the shelves with my name on it. I get quite giddy with excitement.
The draft cover will be done by early next week. We are now in the edit process and the initial edit will take six weeks. Then we go back and forth with layouts and line edits or whatever. There is a whole production process that kicks in from now, and it is all very smooth and well managed. The book is due for release mid August, exciting huh!
We are still missing the tagline though. Damn. We will have a ‘blad’ ready by early next week already. That is a mini mock up of the book to take to the book sellers and marketing people. COOL!
The edit team had a few suggestions re the book, which I initially find difficult to hear but it makes sense and the more I think about it, the more I agree. They also want the book quite a bit shorter. It is now 112,000 words; they want it down to between 80-90,000 words.
We will see. I am nervous about the editing process, but I am also a little used to it after going back and forth so many times with Tess, that has helped me a lot. She eased me into the process. (Thanks my darling Tessy)
The best bit is that they liked the book. That felt good.
Phew. V nerve wracking. I left the meeting exhausted actually, and not because they weren’t nice, they were very nice, but it is SO personal, that is my life on those pages. Talking about cutting parts feels like talking about cutting parts of my life. I know it is necessary, but it is hard to hear. But on the whole I do agree with them, and that is why I have them there, to present an objective view on what a reader would want to read.
They raised an interesting example of where we could cut, and as they were talking I realized exactly what they meant. They started talking about how in parts I get too personal, too raw, too sore. They said we should end the chapter sooner, let the reader imagine the pain rather than me tell in minute detail how I felt. Initially I balked at their suggestion, but then I realized they were right. In fact my non-infertile friend Meriel who also did an edit for me suggested the same thing. Often leaving things to the reader’s imagination is more powerful than a recount of how you felt. And I know why I had it in there, it is because what I went through was so fucking terrible, so so so bad, that I want the reader / friend / stranger, whoever is reading, to hurt as well. To make them go ‘ouch’. I had never thought of that before, but I realized it yesterday. And it is not necessary. The reader will go ‘ouch’ without me forcing them to read the detail of my inner emotional turmoil. And of course some of that stuff is necessary, and will be in the book, but there are other parts where it can be cut.
But still, phew. Hectic. The book is so personal, on so many levels. It is more than a book; it is my life. I just know that any negative reviews, of which I am sure there will be plenty, are going to be hard to deal with.
But, they liked the book. And that is good. So far so good, things are happening.
I am v proud of myself for doing this. I am normally such a terrible procrastinator. If any thing seems like too much of an effort then I give it up. But this I have stuck to, even when it felt more like homework or a chore than anything else.
I can’t actually believe it. Me!! A book!