Reasons for not having an emergency ‘live baby check’.

1. I feel sufficiently pukey to assume at least one baby is alive. Hopefully.
2. If both babies are dead having a scan wont change that fact.
3. But most importantly, I have had so many scans that I am convinced these babies are going to come out with radars as heads and ears like Spock. They will pick up radio waves if placed in the correct position.
4. If I go for an early scan it means a longer period until the next one. 14 days is my maximum time I can stay (semi) sane between scans.
5. I am trying to be sensible. This is a big thing for me. It does not come naturally being sensible.

Another crap sleep last night. The volume button on the babbling from my over active mind seems to have got stuck on high.

Comments

[cheryl b.]

I have nothing to say, just wanted you to know that someone (lots of someones actually) cares.

[wavery]

Hoping you can beat the shit out of the volume button without mistaking it for husbands head.
Yeah, I've done that, makes for an unhappy husband. Oh, and also pukey is good. Go, babies, go.

[eM]

Sounds like you had a very scarey and worrying weekend. Sending you lots of love (wish it helped).

[Sheena]

Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.... (Ditto to the beating husband part.) Keep taking it minute by minute, T, I promise you that there is atleast one gaurantee - you cannot possible feel like this for eternity. Sorry, bad advise - i take that back i do.

[Julie]

Just saw this post. Ignore everything in my e-mail except the part about blowing the cabana boy.

Good times, good times.

[kelly]

The worry is just horrible - I had tons of sleepless nights were I convinced myself the babies weren't alive anymore. I am sure you addressed this already somewhere in your blog but have you considered a doppler - I think it saved my sanity early on. It just really helped to take the edge off between the ultrasounds. Just a thought.

[Julia]

Won't your doc let you come in for an unscheduled quickie with the Doppler? (You should be able to hear them now - especially since you're thin and carrying two.)

[Brooklyn Girl]

Oy, Tertia--wishing you high powered headphones to tune out the babble.

[Lisa]

Damn wish you could drink so that noise would become fuzzy and far away at night.

[Kristine]

I've already gotten myself so worked up between appointments I've had to go in twice for "peace of mind scans." My baby will probably be radioactive too. How long until your next scheduled appointment? I guess you just have to consider the ratio of TIME UNTIL NEXT APPT TO LEVEL OF NEUROSIS THAT CAN BE HANDLED. It's a tough one to calculate for sure! Good luck!!

[Pazel]

Sensible is easy in the daylight. It's the nighttime where we fall. Remember that midnight Tertia and either go in for a little listen or order the doppler. Say you only use it a month, that's one month of pure pleasure and rest.

I swear I don't work for this company nor own stock. I just think that it's pure genius.

[Cecily]

Last night I couldn't sleep much either. My job screwed up my paycheck (they forgot to deposit it into my account) so we had a horrible starving broke weekend (ok, we were broke, not starving) and my husband got up at 5am to see if the dough was there and prevented me from getting any more sleep.

So if sleep deprivation kills the babies, mine are dead too. So there.

[Menita]

C'mon. I know you're fashioning a crude listening device out of tin foil and suction cups. Yes, I can see you, you can come out from behind the shed now.

Hang in there, T.

[Bridgette]

Another fan of the doppler here. Saved my sanity many times. It was my BF through many panic attacks.

I hope you are able to shut your brain off and get some rest soon.

[Emily]

I say do whatever you need to make yourself feel better and more relaxed. I vote for the doppler and a scan (because I used to work on Wall Street and believe in a belt AND suspenders :))

[mamacate]

One more thing about the doppler. I was hesitant to get it because I was afraid I *wouldn't* hear the h/bs and then I would freak out and it would be okay. Here is what I did. I didn't use it until the morning of a scheduled u/s. That way, I knew that I would have a follow up if I needed it. If you don't have an anterior placenta (or two), you should be able to hear by now. Don't be a hero. Get the doppler. I even found some for sale on ebay, but wound up renting one instead. I don't know if they rent them in SA but perhaps you could buy one and then resell it later. Hang in.