This.is.the.last.time....
This is the last time I am using my own eggs.
CD8 scan showed NO f'ing follies this morning. None. Zip. Fuckall.
Lovely. Not.
Apparently this is a fairly common response in PCO patients, you sometimes get lots, sometimes none. I am to go for more bloodwork on Wed to see if my E2 is rising, and then another scan on Friday.
Whatever.
If it is not going well I am going to cancel this cycle and do a donor cycle as soon as I can. I am so sick and tired of this crap.
Dr said he is not too worried. Well its not his money is it. He said to carry on with 3 amps and I could get a whole bunch growing suddenly.
I did do some reading on this and it seems there is a very fine, moving line between under response and over response in PCO patients. I know this. I either get 30 eggs or none. Its just that the line keeps changing so finding a protocol that works is a ever changing target.
I just want a baby. Now. Jeez, I am tired of this crap.
DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT!! This is so f'ing UNFAIR!!
Posted by: Bridgette | 03 May 2004 at 01:57 PM
Shit! I'm so sorry.
I don't have PCO, but I have had the same sort of response to injectable meds on several occasions. Good news is that follicles do start popping up out of nowhere most of the time. Better late than never, I always think.
I hope this will be the case for you during your next scan.
Hang in there.
Posted by: Danae | 03 May 2004 at 04:04 PM
Tertia, This just sucks big time. I'm sorry. I'm still hoping you get some late starters.
Posted by: Lauren | 03 May 2004 at 04:35 PM
There is no sense in any of this. I think there is an enormous conspiracy afoot in the world of reproductive endocrinology to convince us patients that there's actual SCIENCE at work — because at this point I just don't believe anybody knows ANYTHING for sure.
I am just sick that you're experiencing this uncertainty.
Posted by: Julie | 03 May 2004 at 07:53 PM
God, I'm sorry. I will hope good things for you on Wednesday.
Posted by: Lisa | 03 May 2004 at 08:14 PM
Tertia, I'm so sorry. That just blows. WTF is wrong with the universe??
Posted by: getupgrrl | 03 May 2004 at 08:34 PM
I'm really, really, really sorry.
I'll be thinking about you. And hoping like crazy.
Posted by: Karen | 04 May 2004 at 02:43 AM
The universe was just on a lunch break yesterday, girl.
I hope you get a decent surprise by the next scan, you do not deserve this crap and ye olde IVF ferryman takes you over the river into the Egg Land of plenty.
Be sure to let us know straight away.
B
Posted by: Bianca | 04 May 2004 at 09:15 AM