General ramblings

I have been hopeless at being good. I had the best intentions to make my body my temple this cycle. Only eat organic, not drink/smoke/eat chocolate/sugar etc. But I just can't do it. My body is less of a temple and more of a fast food diner with a smoking section.

I can proudly say I have not bought a box of cigarettes since last Friday. However I have bummed smokes off every one around me. Between the puffs of my husband's smokes and 'let me light that for', I probably smoked 2 cigarettes yesterday. Which isn't bad but I am supposed to be NOT smoking. Or drinking. However I have cut down to half a glass a day (a biggish glass). Which is not too bad. I have read that wine is moderation is good for you so I guess its ok'ish. Although have best friend's wedding tomorrow and am doing speach therefore will have to drink to pluck up courage. Damn.

I have no self discipline, what so ever.

I loved Danea's post about her missing 20 pounds. I swear those sneaky bastards hide in showers because I found my missing 10 pounds in the shower this morning as well. I tried to pretend it was from my swollen ovaries but after only two days of stims I doubt my ovaries are doing much except moaning like sonofabitches about being woken up from their yearly slumber.

And lastly, I want to confirm, that it really is a (male) dog's life....
(note male dog gets to lie on comfy lounger, female dog has to lie on ground- typical)

Comments

[Boulder]

I'm day 5 of stims (don't want to talk about it much either...), and had the best of intentions as well. Woke up the other day, though, and said "screw it."
I've done everything "perfectly" on other cycles and still have nothing to show for it. I'm now in a frame of mind that says "relax."
I figure the stress of trying to be perfect far outweighs any benefit that may be there. I'm not a smoker, so I don't have that vice, but I sure can make a list of others!
We've been through hell. We deserve to have a life that is positive and uplifting. If it takes some "forbidden fruits" to get that sense of wellbeing, then screw what it "right."

Enjoy.

Boulder

PS - Love your pups! I have 2 wet weimeraners looking at me from our deck right now. :)

[Jodi]

What beautiful dogs, smart and cute!

[Danae]

I had the same intention of making my body my temple during this 3 month break from treatments. So far, I've gained weight, started smoking again, and drink red wine just about every night. I did give up the Pringles and sweets, though. Not that it seems to be helping much.

So much for the "My body is my temple" idea. Although, my body is starting to get as big as a temple. Does that count?